The Advent Chronicles 1: Peace and White
Here it is, Advent. The holiday season snuck up on me this year. And winter as well: Friday the first snowflakes arrived, raindrops solidifying mid-morning and swiftly sticking. KA says it has been many years since it snowed this early in Vienna. Once upon a time, during his lifetime, the Danube River froze over enough in winter that you could walk on the ice. We are not there by a long shot, but snow in November is the first step. This morning it snowed again too, though when we took a walk, it decided to turn to sleet, and now the grass is visible once again.
Thanksgiving was simply another work day made more difficult by the COVID booster I had received the day before. As of mid-November, anyone in Vienna over 18 is eligible for a booster four months after their second vaccination. As with the second shot, the main side effect was extreme fatigue that dissipated before 36 hours were up. Work sessions were interspersed with naps. In my fog, I was thankful for KA being there watching out for me – and for being among the privileged who have access to safe and effective vaccines. My wish I expressed last week came true: I was able to curl up in a ball on the couch and reduce my activity to a minimum. Always be careful what you wish for!
Last night I sat down with pen and paper to figure out what Advent is going to be about this year. I like having a focus for the season. The past two years I have yearned for Stille: stillness and silence. The first word that came to me this year was peace. Yes, peace, as in peace on earth, as in give peace a chance. Peace seems to have fallen out of fashion, but I have always been anachronistic, atavistic. Peace as the first step toward freedom: the state of not being a slave to sensations, emotions, or thoughts, of not being affected by what is unpleasant, painful, or unwanted.
The rook couple whose strategy is sharing are back this winter, feeding each other delicacies found on the ground. At least I presume they are feeding each other. Rooks don’t kiss, do they? Austria being an Alpine country, Austrians talk about their Hausberg, their “home” mountain. In Graz, it is Schöckl, and in Vienna, it is Schneeberg. On these same lines, I have identified our Hauskrähe, our home crow. This is the hooded crow with a daub of white feathers over its heart. We see it nearly every day all year round. Our building is clearly located in its territory, but it doesn’t seem to mind sharing it with the rooks – probably because it is so much quicker than them to snatch up any peanuts that happen to fall from the sky.
After observing this particular crow for so long, I decided that it merited a name. Given its white patch of feathers, I chose to call it Bianca. I have no idea if Bianca is male or female, but Bianco is not a typical name, so there you have it: may I present Bianca to you. What is not white: the yarn of the half-knit sweater set aside in October. It was clear to me then that the entire sweater would not fit as I had hoped it would. It took me weeks to admit to myself that the best way forward was not to tweak the pattern but to find a different one. Yesterday the pattern made itself known. I will have a new pullover by Christmas.
May you have a peaceful week!